Wow it's been awhile since I've been here but I figure I'd just like to start writing again, to have some sorta record of all the wonderful things God lets happen in my life. If that was ungrammatical, I can't really tell right now I'm sorry, just wanna go to sleeeep.

But yes, anyway, last weekend was Buvan's last official one in Singapore. It was a really good one, got to spend most of Saturday together + with Hil too (such a bonus really~~) so I was pretty happy, as happy as I could be la at least, with him leaving + my crazy last semester of school starting without him aroundd. Went to the tailor with Hil in the morning for the saree blouse, we had a good time walking around Little India at 11 plus in the morning with our great sense of direction hahah, but walking around lost isn't really bad when you've got good company you know? So yeah, finally got the tailoring done then it was off to tekka market for brunch. The appam man cheated us mannn. We're officially probably 100% wary of appam that isn't the one we get in Seremban. Srsly la, all these other versions got no standard. Anyway, had a really gooood time just talking with hil while we tool forever to eat 1 appam + 2 pratas hahah, love talking to that girl <3<3

Then we were finally aware of the time and made our way to the ETAC sports day thing at amma's school. Talked some more all the way to Sembawang by train. Then walked all over Sun Plaza looking for drinks plus the ATM and getting distracted by a watch shop since Hil still hasn't found a watch she likes hahah since like forever agooo. But yeah, as I said, normally tedious activities are perfectly fun when you've got great company, so (: mm. THEN WE DID THE MOST AMAZING THING. We found our way to Sembawang Sec from the mrt BY FOOT, with just a photo of the map from the mrt. Yes how amazing are we srslyy hahah, keep in mind our sense of direction people, or lack thereof. When we called Buvan to ask for help initially, he'd just told us to take a cab right away! Pigg hahah so yes we proved him WRONGG.

Mm the sports day thing was pretty fun. Short Street girls totally kicked ass and won Captain's Ball wootwoot^^ hahah and Hil was all excited once she got there, wasn't all dreading it as she had been from the first mention of the whole thing. And of course not forgetting our golden boyy, lookin so hansum and smart in his soccer gear all(; hahah yes, the fella who got us all down there in the first place. Hung out with Ryna and Hil then Ryna gave me a lift to the mrt (yaye!) and I made my way to cell. We practised for the Youth Sunday item, mmhmm then after that amma and the gang came to pick me up and we were off to JB! For Aunty Rosalind's 87th~ With Hil, deb, buvan and me in the back seat, off we went, all squished together. hahaa but being squished with these ppl you loove itz all good. hahahah yeah the party was alright, we hung around with daniel and gavin and mainly ourselves. Plus Jedidiah toooo. So cute so cute mygosh he'll melt your heart. Plus he decided to smile at me while playing with him! aiyoy can totally make your day..ahh..mm.

So we headed back to Singapore all squished in the car again, dropped deb at home then I went with amma to send hil and buvan back. heh yeah..had to have every moment I could with them cuz the reality of school (+soo much unfinished hw) was sinking in. not pleasant really. Hil fell asleep and we journied in comfortable silence. And I was so sad mygoodness it was unbelievable. But of course, Buvan being Buvan'll know how to make you smile till the very last moment and all (hahah yes you closed the boot without a sound well done heheh) so yeah, that was the last I saw of him. Mm. That was my amazing Saturday, then it was a whole week of school, and along came ANOTHER SATURDAAAYYY(: plus a long weekend at the end of the 1st week back at school is the most brilliant thing this system has ever come up with I swear.

Had a really goood Saturday again. Met Melia and Violet for lunch, then it was worship prac with the guys plus melia and shauna for their respective dances(: Prac for youth sunday with all the youths and then off to Aaron's for his housewarming dinner thing~~that was fun, their house's so so prettyyy. Oh plus his cousin and her baby were there too. aye that's one more really really cute baby. Got to carry him for quite awhile ahh melts, so adorable. Oh and aaron's dad's got loooads of trophies man. Displayed all over. So many for bowling! Papa had those too I'd mentioned to aaron..oh and then later on I saw some for carrom too! Made me smile. Mm we played taboo too after that~~yaye favouritest game in the wooorld. Me, Johnston (haven't talked in a loong time, was nice hanging out), Serene, Aaron and Josh versus Melia, Julia, Joezer, Ernest and Sarah. Hahah twas fun. Taboo's alwaaays fun. Good job choosing the right game aaroon (: got good taste.

YOUTH SUNDAY service went on pretty well, (all by God's grace eh my dearest worship team? heh). Just pray people were ministered to and that the youths were inspired to wanna do more for Him. That's all I hope for really.

Mm then it was home for 5 hours of math tuition, it didn't really feel that long so that was good. Watched teevee with debs after that then just went to sleep, FEELING SOO GOOD cos it's a sunday night with NO SCHOOL THE NEXT DAYY. hahah yes, oh the joy~
and yeah, now monday's gone by, I didn't manage to do as much work as I'd planned to. But that said, I managed to do things like help with the laundry and watch the bathroom for amma, so I'm feeling like a nice good daughter and that seems to matter more than finishing everything else on the to-do list, you know?

Like, there'll always be things on the to-do list, but it's really the things we don't list down that matters so much more.
Love's shown in acts of service. And really, that's the hardest thing to do to express love. It's so much easier to write a nice
happy note/card or say 'I appreciate you for all you've done' but you don't really know how to appreciate till you've done exactly
what that person's been doing for you all along. Love you ma, though you'll never see this.

Today was a day I felt truly safe in His hands. Haven't for quite awhile now, so thank You God so much. Yours're really the safest pair
of hands. The only one I can reach out to at ANY time and know will be there for sure. 100% kinda for sure. Thank You..I'm gonna trust in
Your love. It's all I need. I'm so happy You've revealed that to me in its fullness.

Night, love.

p.s. I wonder who'll be the first to realise I've started blogging again heh. Been pretty good at keeping secrets lately too, so I'll just wait and see hehee~

Thank You God for coming and picking me up again. And thank You for giving me good friends Lord. Night<3

More detailed post up soon. Once everything on the current todo list is done. This shall serve as my motivation then. Have a good week ahead, and don't forget to hold on to Him; He'll always be there.

I think God made me care so much for people even though it takes alot of time and energy cos sometimes, all a person needs to know is that someone cares.
That obviously means more give than take.
And it seems like I'm fine with that.

Hello hello, it's been awhile but I thought I'd just write about the loveliest saturday I had this 3rd of Aprill 2010 before any precious detail gets forgotten!

Saturday was SO lovely. And so SOO needed. Thank You God.
Started off the morning by headeing to Macs at Plaza Sing for breakfast before our cell outing of ICE SKATING!
Haah, mm Ryan was good company as usual and soon we met everyone else too then all of us headed on down
to Kallang, but half of us could get a ride with Kenny who drove woohooo(: Once we got there we waited for Joezer
by watching Melia and Jia Long play some game at the arcade haahah it was so retarded but they're expressions were rather
amusing and entertaining la.
Then Joezer finally appeared and we went to into the ice skating rink. It was really fun(: And I only fell ONCE! on my knees though so they're
bruises on my shin still but that's okayy. I realise you have to tie the skates really REALLY tight to make skating a whole more stable and easier. Don't worry la, not that stupid, realised mine weren't tight within the first 20 mins and went to retie, then cos I've got a lovely strong army friend, I got them tied even MORE tightly for me while they were resurfacing the ice. Thanks loads Ryan~~and for being there when I fell toooo.
Ohoh and Kenny brought his camera so I took some shots with that as well.  They're all on facebook go seeee(:
Mmhmm then two hours later we were all off to lunch at burger king! so sooo many of us they actually gave us a menu and came to take our mass orders hahh.
oh and i almost forgot about the funky red mickey mouse gloves I so graciously saved Ryan from wearing hehe(:

mmthen after lunch had to make my way back to church, right after finding out that Ryan'd be my company to the mrt stn since I'm so SO bad with buses and he was gonna go there to get to the airport but leave earlier just for me, thankyou ryaan, I managed to get Kenny to give us all a ride! so I got a ride ALL THE WAY back to church wooohoo love having a car around man. And Ryan got dropped off at City Hall too hahah IB-style eh, while the other two jokers jumped outta the car in the rain? hahahah nice one Joezer.

So yes Worship prac began all tense and all for various reasons coupled with the time factor too but God was good and let things turn out well in the end. And it was awesome really. We did 'Majesty' too for the first time. That was really, really awesome by the end of prac at 6.40ish pm. Thanks God for all the talent you've blessed the team with and for so graciously blessing us with your presence as well during the prac (and on Sunday itself too!).

And here's the best part of the day...

the SURPRISE PARTY i entered the house toooooooooo(: Best night of my life I swear. Love you family for doing this for me. Looks like whining to Deb about surprises resulted in smth really really good. thank you thank you thank youuu. I was grinning away the entire night hahah. I looked really bad with the hair a major mess and all la but OHWELL its ogayyy, I was too happy to care. I guess in general it'd be very normal to be so happy about smth like a surprise party, but hahah since I, Tabitha VIcky Rajaratnam, who really REALLY loves being surprised got a surprise party for my 18th, hahah I'm over the mooon honey! Yeah, no kidding. Was really just not able to get over it. Still can't believe it all happened man. But it did and it was absolutely lovely. First thing I heard when I walked in was them all singing 'Happy Birthday' and I literally didn't know what to do with myself, just turned around very slowly to lock the gate and turned back to face and walk towards them, very slowly again. And was even more surprised to see Vieshaalan and Ratheshan there! Sneaky sista got into my old phone to get their numbers, and it was all only planned on Thursday. Thanks so much for being so spontaneous everyone and clearing your schedules and all just to make my 18th really special. Love you all to bits.

And ohyes, Christine made this lovely card thing with Footprints in glitter glue as the border with a verse in the center and everyone wrote a note in eachfoot! So nice. Thanks so much my dear for all the effort. Oh and we played Taboo! So yes, Buvan made his presence felt after all, missed you mister~wrote a footprint for you too come back and see! Hah the first thought I had after it all was Oh I gotta tell Buvan all about this hahah! Cos yes, in the loveliness of it all, something felt missing, I just couldnt put a finger on what it was till after the party. But yes, thanks so much for Taboo~you made sure you wouldn't be left out of anything eh(;

Ah mm so that was yours truly's absolutely fantastic Saturday from start to finish. Thank You, thank You God.

love,
me.

Woohoo march hols've just ended and I'm forging on into term two! Completely unprepared academically.
And yes, the very notion of the need for being prepared academically has been drilled into my head quite
succesfully by my beloved mother who's ever-anxious about my As, as well as by the first few minutes of Mr Ngoei's
online lectures. Where'd all my ambitious plans go man? AH OHWELL. no point thinkin abt it now.

The hols were sorta kinda productive too actually, and reeally really good people-wise and getting-back-with-God-wise. So that's awesome. Couldn't have asked for more. God's been teaching me things every day. And teaching me how He provides really, as long as we put our trust in Him. Simple enough a theory to absorb mentally, but it's a whole different story really understanding it; i'm sure we can all somehow identify.

Hmmm my hols weren't all that happening and all but there was a good enough balance of work and play I suppose. More work than play and still not enough work but ohwell. Ahah I honestly thank God for the (failed) study session I had with Marcus. Hahah joke. Eh ure the one who suggested studying together kayy<you secretly just wanted my awesome company right? hahah kiddingg, thanks for the time, you> Real, lifelong friendships. Few things sound sweeter. God really does provide you know? He showed me that this week.

Mmm most of the other days went by in a blur, but Friday was especially significant. That's when He helped turn my whole attitude back on track with Him again. Friday was in general an extremely tiring, worry-filled day, details can be asked for personally if you want. But by the end of the day, I swear I was the happiest person in the world and when I say happy, I mean happy man. So happy it gave me so much energy I couldn't sleep till really late. Ah..just remembering that makes smile now. Thank You so much once again for reminding me You care when no-one else is around to, by doing the amazing seemingly-impossible things You do. And for giving me people to share the joy with, be it just in an sms. Cos You know it makes a difference to me.

And ohyes! Then Saturday was pretty lovelyyy. I WANT A COOKIE MONSTER SOFT TOYY haah. discovered that while we went shopping for a present for lil' Jedidiah(: Had his 1 month celebration dinner thing so got to hang out with hil (not so much since everyone was around but we must soon somehow) and all at Buvan's place. Many many people around anda couple of cute kids. And ohmygoodness I really fell in love with that baby, ah. Really looks like that having kids debate is over.

OHYES, Buvan got taboo(yayeyayeyaye i love taboo) for my (/our) birthday present. really early since his royal highness'll be goooone. Dunno when I'll see him next. Everyone's gonna be missing you by the way mister. Everyone. Especially me.

Mm ah, okay then. This term's gonna be really hectic. And so many things're gonna be new or will need getting used to. Hmm many not so many things per se but one major constant in my life'll be changing, so..yeah. That'll need some getting used to. Thank You God though for giving me the best surprises ever.